Back from Radio Silence

Ok, this next story is almost too much, but this is my life. I went to drop off library materials, and was just getting back in the car when I received a call from Lawrence asking how soon I was going to be home. My littlest angel had cut his penis with scissors, and there was blood. We're seriously low on band-aids.

If you haven't heard about liquid glue, I can't say enough about it. Great for the very young children when you really need the band aid to stay on, and for the more delicate areas of the body.... Thanks to liquid glue, we all slept happily and comfortably through the night. For those of you who have no idea why I'm talking about that, just think urine=acid, cut in delicate places.

On to other things. I've been quite busy, and am in a constant state of near overload, or actual overload. My body is at about 20 years more aged than my age. While I am cured of any diseases, tumors or really life threatening things, I'm not recovered. I held Silas for about an hour or less last Thursday, and on Friday my lower back/Sacrum started hurting. By Saturday, I was immobile. It took a while to connect the dots to figure out the sources, it had crept up so slowly, seemingly unrelated. It will take me a while to get back to a robust life, for lack of better word.

It is so frustrating, I don't have the energy to keep my house clean, cook meals daily, put laundry back into dressers. For most moms, women even I think, having a messy home, makes your mind messy. How have we been living your wondering now? Lawrence washes the laundry, the dishes pile up until Lawrence or I clean them up. Vacuuming......... well, it could be done more often, shoes help so you don't feel the crunch! For meals, I started making oatmeal for breakfast everyday in the microwave, lunch and dinner tend to be 50% pre-made meals from ??

It's not really a depressed place, but I don't have the energy to get up from the chair, the energy to move, to think. I'm maxed out. It is a physical taxation. I'm depleted. I am trying to think of how to fill the void, to gain strides forward. Lawrence is so generous with giving me time to do things without kids in evenings and weekends, so I will crawl out of this void with time and more importantly, the Lords help.

The mere fact I've made an entry in the blog shows a spurt of energy. We are going to see Andre Cole, a magician, tonight. This should be a fun outing. I've been living as if I'm not teetering on the edge of total exhaustion. Staying at home with kids all day is not relaxing. They get cabin fever and then fight more. Let me tell you, bickering children is one of the biggest energy drains I can think of. So we've been doing school most days until quiet time, then going out. This week, Wed, Thurs, and today, I have limited school to whatever Caleb can do with minimal input from me. This is usually a page of math. And today, a page of writing.

We've been enjoying books on CD, and this week, have enjoyed Lunch Money, a new book, 2005. Very good actually. Long, 5 hour or so. I count that as read aloud, I am grateful for skilled narrators to fill our minds with the written word with much less energy than it takes me to read.

We started listening to CS Lewis's The silver Chair. I'm surprised, Caleb is enthralled with the fantasy. With the Classical education philosophy, you are supposed to read books below your reading level for entertainment, shear fun, books at your reading level and books above your reading level, to challenge you and push/pull you along. Caleb really enjoys reading books multiple times, so books on CD is great for that, those readers never get too tired, or have other kids that are hungry, tired or thirsty:)