Monday, November 02, 2009

Moving Time

Last week I lost my hope and was in a crisis of faith. We so often treat God like a genie and he is always faithful and gives us what we need. I really believed he'd work miracles and make things work, but he wasn't, that I could see. I've never been in such a dark place spiritually as I was last week and last month even, but, God kept whispering through his people and in that still small voice that he had this one. I lost the ability to even hear him last week. Salvation is the gift, other than that, I can not hope for more. I was stripped of all other understanding.

He set divine appointments, running into a dear friend in the Costco parking lot, where she prayed for me, that was about a month ago. He continued blessing me one little thing at a time to show me he was still there, but I was buying the lies of the enemy, that God cared only about my salvation, other than that, he wasn't involved in my life. I can see now God wanted me to see Him when he revealed his plan, because it is not a plan I would have chosen without putting up a big stink, feeling angry and on and on. I had to go down a path to see where I belonged without God, and I can recognize his fingerprints in the plan he revealed and is bringing us on now. I now embrace and am excited for our new simpler life. I will shed extra belongings I don't need, I embrace a lower stress lifestyle, and he's giving me a bigger kitchen, with my lifestyle that's pretty huge!

My friend Amy was sharing about Jesus and his eternal perspective, how that was at the forefront of his speech and mind, and yet, for our benefit, because we are so limited and need to see help now where we are at, he blesses us, heals us, restores us. Still for the purpose of our eternal salvation, and for that of those around us. Thank you God!